Monday, September 28, 2009

Change is in the air

Do you ever have that feeling like something is brewing, just a little buzz crawling across your skin, but you’re not able to detect exactly what’s going on? I have that feeling right now, and it’s driving me insane trying to figure out what’s going on. It’s like I can feel an internal storm just waiting to erupt. I’m not sure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. I guess I’ll just have to wait and see.

I live a hectic, but simple life. Just me and my daughter with our two dogs roaming around in our 100 year old house. Usually, that’s just fine with me. I enjoy it. But lately, I feel like maybe I’m missing something. I’m not sure what it is, but my heart doesn’t seem to be fully engaged in my surroundings. I’m finding myself pulled into my daydreams more and more. Maybe it’s the change of season, or the fact that I’m realizing that this year is already headed toward it’s close, and I haven’t accomplished anything that I set out to do. Maybe it’s a sign that my muse is waking up and is planning a full on attack (that would be nice). Whatever it is, I can feel it running through my veins, heated and charged, getting ready for whatever lies ahead.

My concentration is shot. I’ve started and stopped writing a hundred times, but I can’t seem to stay focused on the story. I’ve tried editing, still no good. I’ve now convinced myself that there’s a reason for that. Whatever kind of change is working it’s way through me right now seems to be the culprit. At least, that’s what I’m blaming it on. J So, for now, I’m going to think that this is a good thing. It’s a time of rejuvenation for me, and at the end of whatever it is, I’m going to come out stronger and better for it.

It seems strange to me, that this is happening now. Shouldn’t spring be the season for rejuvenation? Maybe my internal clock is off.

Have you ever experience this? I’d love to hear your story. Give me something to look forward to. Leave a comment and let me know what you think.

2 comments:

Gracen Miller said...

Sierra, I had this feeling going into 2009. At times this year was good, at times it was bad. The year started off bad, trouble between my husband and I, but once we worked it out, we're stronger and are getting along better than we ever have. Other good things, I've contracted Elfin Blood with Noble Romance and Ellora's asked for the full on my other novel. (Not saying it'll be accepted, but I'm just excited it made it this far! Does that sound crazy?) I've met some great people at WTR and through MLM and the Noble authors already feel like a family in such a short time! But, like I said it's not a been a great year. Finances have been tight, my husband took a substantial pay cut (either that or lose his job - no brainer) and since I don't work outside the home, it's been tough. And even though I was willing to go back to work, my husband wasn't willing to make that sacrifice yet. I had trouble with my Mitral-Valve Prolapse and my father-in-law was just recently diagnosed with B-Cell Leukemia.

So, like I said a good year and a bad year. BUT I think I've learned a lot about myself this year also. It's been a year to grow on, I've become stronger and I like the person I am better.

Did any of this make sense? I'm not saying your feelings are going to be the same as mine, but whatever it is you're feeling, I believe ultimately it's for the good!

*huggles* Love ya, girl! I wish you all the best 2010 has to offer and then more!

Sorry for writing a book. lol

MK Mancos/Kathleen Scott/Kate Davison said...

The air has felt positively wicked outside lately. I don't know what it is. When people say change is in the air, I never thought of it as a tangible thing - I've changed my mind on that score.

I don't know if it's for the better or not...but it has filled me with apprehension.

-Kate

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